Zubaidah Arshad
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December Rain

It stopped three days ago. The rain I mean. Chaos was imminent, in the midst of endless rain. Water level rose, connections were cut off, river unable to contain the torrents anymore. It was my favorite moment. To hear nothing but the noise from the roof, from the trickling drips of water on the ground. It was as if listening to the end of transmission on the TV. The white noise, some may call it. The sound that calming, that brings you to sleep.

The rainy season is the only season when you can feel a little bit cold on your feet. The days and nights under the warmth of blanket. Or the longest nights with the one you love on the bed. It is when parts of your childhood memoirs come to surface aside of your night lullaby. It is when you look at people who are a little unfortunate and you start to have a moment of reflection, of how lucky you are, of being able to live in a house filled with ample comfort. It is when you ride your car, and see the people who have to ride their motorbikes to go to work, to commute, to fetch their kids from school - under the striking yellow raincoats.

The rain starts again. The second wave, some might say.

Perhaps, this is the perfect moment when your subtle and fragile heart will be touched by the view of how magnificent this enormous gift Allah has given. Stop thinking about the natural commotion it brings. The flood, the landslide, the losses of living sources. This perhaps will sound a little cliche to you, but in every hardship, there's a reward in the end.

ZA

Tengkujuh

Rain soothes me. The curtain of falling waters from the roof, the sound it makes when it hits the ground, a few degrees colder than what you always get, the puddles of water on the street, the mist and the fogs at the hills on the way to work. Everything.

Don't hate that rain. It is one of the most perfect time to pray, to ask from Allah. Be thankful.

ZA

Sixth September Two Thousand Seven


I live half an hour 60mph car ride from the place where I work. It is a long journey indeed; I have to wake up in the wee hour so that I could get every incomplete chore in the house, done. It is hard sometimes but I prefer that way.

Yesterday, I woke up at six in the morning. Took my bath, did my prayer, cooked the Australian beef I bought two days ago with black pepper and a sprinkle of rosemary, packed everything up and off I went to my workplace. It was 7 in the morning; the air was so damp I could smell the dew.

I suddenly remembered you today, just when the sun light hit me right on my face when I drove on the freeway to my workplace. I remembered you. I didn’t think that I’ll remember you again. I thought I’ve erased you but the tiny dot of memory still unbroken it attached strongly in my mind. My eyes reddened, I wiped my tears. I wept but the scream remained silent.

How strong I am from the surface, I am nothing but a fractured fragile glass waiting to be shattered into pieces in no time inside. How long I’ve spent my time to keep abreast with my work, I am wailing to keep on breathing in my heart. How hard this has been for me to get you out of my system, it is a struggle to keep me living.

Forgive me for what I’ve done.

ZA
6th September 2007

Custardiology 101


‎'Custard' is a name given by nina. It was not intentional. Constant fights and arguments were pretty tiresome so I wanted to call him 'bastard'. Nina said 'no'. It was too harsh a word. So she suggested 'Custard' which is cute, and OK and does not sound condescending. So there you go, a little brief intro into Custard's history.



ZA

Green Horn

A friend brought me over to a secluded place. The beach was huge, the sand was pristine white, the water was green and blue, and the sky was nothing short of an immaculate canvas.

No one was there except a few anglers far on the hard solid rocks. I kept silent.

"Remembering someone?"

Yes

"No"

"You lied. Still miss him eh?"

Yes

"No"

"OK. He misses you too"

Really??

"OK"

"Let's go. Lunch is up"

I don't miss you.

ZA